Emskimmee19 Günlüğü, 18 Ağu 10

I am struggling today. I have this uncontrollable urge to eat and I have tried everything other than to take a sleeping pill to try and curb it.

It is lightning and storming so bad outside and my power has been off twice once was for 45 minutes. I have had 80 ounces of water. I have had 2 eggs and I ate these two really great spinach mozzarella and chicken sausages which are only 1 carb each (I had two). The kitchen is full of Jeff's junk foods and such which I normally have no problem resisting. I do not want to cheat. I do not want to fail.

I mixed up some sugar free jello but due to the power outages it is still not set. I have no shakes no bars as I am going to be out of town the next 4 days so I did not want to go to the grocery and have my fresh stuff spoil.

I am not sure why I am even taking the time to type this other than so I can go back and reflect that this is a HARD choice I am making, that I have been working to make my health and weight a priority, and maybe just the time it is taking me to type this will keep me out of the kitchen.