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I have been keeping up with the water, and averaging about 1 liter of water a day. This may not seem like a lot, as 2 liters is what the usual requirement is, but I've never really been a water drinker, so I'm impressed.
I also have started a morning routine, which is a health routine, and a great way to start the day. I fill a 750ml bottle with soda water (it still counts as water) and chlorophyll and find it's quite an appetite suppressant anyway. I am taking Kruschen salts: a mix of 6 cleansing and alkalizing salts, revolting to taste, makes you want to puke, but I've mixed it with a little blueberry juice. Tomorrow it will go in my coffee. It's meant to be a natural detoxifier which improves the function of internal organs, helps with sluggishness, helps maintain the balanced salt content of body fluid and body cells. I don't like the taste at all, but am willing to stick with it. The idea of being internally cleansed probably overrides the nasty taste it has. I'll know in a few days if it's worthwhile. I also bought 'Slimshot' weightloss formula. It's a chocolate 'snack' that's meant to be far more concentrated in vitamins and other healthy things so I added it to my morning coffee - like a mocha. It's not the best, but it's worth seeing if my health improves.
I am trying to address EVERYTHING 'inner' with myself at the moment. I need to unclutter not only my living space, but also my mind: emotional state, concentration levels, memory function, stress etc. I need to really address what's bothering me mentally also. I have chronic everything it seems. Insomnia is something that affects me in waves i.e. 2 straight weeks of 3 1/2 (average) hours sleep night after night, and a natural body clock which gets me up around 8am - sleep deprived or not. Then I'll be so exhausted that I'll spend a week sleeping for 7 hours (approx), then go back to the insomnia state.
I could go on writing forever today, but I have things to do.
I will add one more thing though, my boyfriend it seems has been flirting with a friend of mine. Now there's nothing at all wrong with a bit of harmless flirting, but since it's only one example that I'm aware of, how many more? How far would he go? The reason I feel so sick over this is not because I'm a jealous person per se, but because he is. And now it's making sense why he's so jealous. He can't stand the idea that I'm doing something that has crossed his mind. He can get quite impossible and over the top with men paying me attention, or will ask 1000 questions about any male 'friend' I catch up with. And now it makes sense, and to be honest, I've had an annoying buzzing sensation going on in the unconscious for a while, and clearly, it's trying to communicate with my conscious, hence (what I believe) the term 'gut feeling'. I have an extremely strong intuition, and I don't want this to be happening, but I'm not one to speculate on an idea that someone's doing something I don't want them to, you can't live like that, but in the past few years, everytime I've had that 'gut' feeling about something, it's always turned out that I was right.
I MUST address the situation with him, but until I see him, I have to centre myself, my mind, body, spirit, my material surroundings, and my overall feeling of wellbeing, positiveness, and sharper inner senses.
Must find my own inner peace today, do an angel card reading, and above all else, try and divert my thoughts from the boy in question, as just writing about it causes me such feelings of black unsettlement within and it's a rather painful feeling - just not physical...
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