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The night before last, a very unhinging situation with my b/f. I have a fear - in fact you might say paranoia of conflict. So yesterday when I woke up I had that torturous feeling of being shaken up inside, nervous tension that wouldn't go away, I was angry and feeling nauseous. I CHOSE to turn that excess of energy into something positive. I constructed an entertainment unit - with no instructions - WITHOUT A MAN, I also wrote a list of all the things a woman usually relies on a man to do that I know I'm capable of doing myself. I spent a lot of the day centering myself, reading quotes to inspire me, it was such a productive day, insightful day, and I managed to keep that anxiety monster in my belly pacified.
On a health note, I'm very impressed with my upkeep of the new morning health routine I've devised. I started taking kruschen salt - and despite it tasting like, well there are no words to describe how hideous it really is, I had researched it and decided it's okay to take in coffee. It doesn't seem as pure or natural, but if it's still going to work, then why put myself through the ordeal of tasting it. I have kept up with the chlorophyll and after a week, plus with the salt I noticed yesterday how different I felt. It's funny how you can get so used to how you feel that you don't know any different, but when you feel a change for the better, it's as the old saying goes: Why didn't I do this ages ago?
I don't feel bloated (a constant thing for me as my diet is pretty dismal to the point that even if I haven't eaten anything my stomach can get that bloated feeling) I am also aware that the health products have a bonus of removing gas. I did have a moment of weakness at 1am - damned insomnia will be the next to go - which is what happens when you're starving, have bulimic tendencies/episodes, and have nervous tension (despite taming the bugger) stuck inside. Main thing, I'm aware it's there and am not letting my conscious handball it to my unconscious simply cause I don't want to face it or acknowledge it. We only do these things because we are frightened of the feelings of 'yuck', but back to my list, I can face something scary WITHOUT a man.
I have also noticed since a particularly obvious sign of detoxifying occurred yesterday (the chlorophyll makes your inner nasties turn green - it was kinda cool lol) but my memory and concentration has improved. I think doing this health thing has proved to be one of the best decisions I've made in a long time. I already have my list of what I plan to accomplish today - and I haven't written it down yet! This is nothing to others, but to me, it's an extremely significant signal: my decision to detoxify has had a chain reaction i.e. I mentally started feeling good as soon as I was in the chemist buying the products - I physically have begun feeling healthier, with improved brain functioning (memory, concentration, focus), and the best of all, on a psychological level I feel such incredible clarity, calmness, wise, intuitive and insightful. I should write a book lol
Happy happy Dan, Happy happy day - I've decided, and it's only the beginning (again).
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